Practice makes perfect

It is unbelievable how much I have learned in such little time. People have helped me with so much by telling me what they use for certain things like eye brows. Sure i have made a few mistakes but with make-up it's okay, it is art if you mess up keep trying until you get it right. People say that you should be pretty on the inside and not the out but personally I feel like I'm not pretty inside or out without make-up. I don't do my make-up to please other people I do it to please myself and i enjoy doing it.

You never know what you can do until you try. I feel like when people are satisfied with the way i do their make-up, they feel better and happier. Personally i feel like if i don't have my make-up on I'm missing a part of me. It's not just make-up its an art form.

I like how many different ways there is to do your make-up. If you have different colored eyes there are certain styles you can do to make your eyes pop. Every eye has a certin way you need to do makeup everyone is unique and thats the beauty of it .

Langston Hughes

Langston Hughes
I am .....
The first African American writer to be able to make a living off of writing.
Able to speak out about racial cruel judgmental matters.
An important historical figure of the Harlem Renaissance.
Going to put forth a poetic innovation that brings upon us musical traditions such as jazz, blues, etc.
Have unstoppable capabilities to be displayed through poetic words.

These inflicted his worldview by becoming a well known modernist and also as we know the first rapper ever known to society. He displayed his poetic words by standing up for racial profiling and judgments. Also he wrote and spoke about problems in the current society at the time. He became well known across the world and is a well known intellectual that is smarter than the average person. The way he spoke about his poetry, the way he said it was displayed in a way that is more memorable and unforgettable to the human mind.

What influenced him to write was the Harlem Renaissance, racial prejudice, his parents separating, going to a school where white people went, and his interest in music.

Quotes:
"Hold fast to dreams" Dreams by Langston Hughes
"I live here, too. I want freedom just as you." Democracy by Langston Hughes
"I am the darker brother. They send me to eat in the kitchen when company comes, but I laugh, and eat well, and grow strong." I too by Langston Hughes

My love for you will last
I remember all the things that happened in the past
certain things you have said and done
makes me want our forever to be never ending
but now im worried sick about all this pretending
pretending everything will be okay
is just now how I want to play
I will wait a lifetime if that's what it takes
you are truely
My one and only
Just hope every thing turns out okay
Hoping you feel the same way
I admit I'm scared that you might be playing
But can't be stuck thinking that way
If this is real please someone tell me
If deceit and games are what is being displayed
At least give me a warning
But I can't think that way or I will be stuck believing
All things that people say
May play out to soon be true
I hate myself for loving you
But my love for you will never fade
You're my one and only

lm this is childish do you not see how much i smile just looking at you i love being with you
but youre just so consumed
Youre not as accepting of your hurt
You have a stong front but a weak interior
Certain things you hide that i see and understand my very own self
The pain laying deep inside
Im emotionally and mentally insane youre right
I already think that i just tried to believe its not true
Now i truely feel like i should see that is
You see
Im messed up and things stick questions always left unanswered in the back of my head
Constantly coming back day by day
Im afraid of loosing you
Thought you understood and listened to me
Now i see my mind is taking control over me honestly just be straight up with me
Tell me what i need to be told
Why do i care so much about you
Is it the fear of being abandonded by you
I honetly dont know
Hope my dumbass doesnt read this to you
Can i not share things with you im openly honest with you never once lied to you
Just hear me out and ill hear you out too of that i swear
Seems te be i just feel like theres something severely wrong with me for thinking certain things
All because of curiousity
I also wonder why i feel like i dont trust you but i don't just assume certaing things
You on the phone with that girl when i came into the room i felt like i dif something to deserve you to hurt me
Everything i have said to you is true
Im sorry for everything i did
Will you please just tell me whats upsetting you
So i can try to change the things played out to be wrong in your views
I feel to like you're cheating on me
It scares me am i not paying enough attention to you
But how can i prove to you im 100% real with you i would
These past thoughts left me stranded bringing back memories and feelings of feeling left once again giving up on because of a misconception
Im hurt
Alone
Left feeling judged
Sorry
And dirty
For starting to have true feelings for you
Im messed up yes your right
Will you tell me what's wrong with me
Been trying to figure some things out
Why am i not feeling numb anymore
Actually crying in front of you
Not the bull shit fake cry that means truely nothing
This is something getting me fucked up over time
Will you give up on me to
I tried not to care about you
You dont work like that
Putting every person in the friend zone
Pretenging to be not so hurt because im not looking for excused or a sorry pitty party to look upon
Im trying to understand what i can do to be you're everything to
Caring about you becuase i accept your reason for the way you mind was taught how to think
Im scared of being abandoned by you i tried not to pretend there wasnt anything bothering you
But i couldn't take it anymore i want to know what you thinks wrong with me specifically...
Can you just not tell me how you feel regaurdless of how i react
Sorry you think im pretending with you
Just seem to hurt to keep pretending not to care or acknowledge how i feel scared because i care about you
Youre mosconspetions arent always true i promise you i will try to be everything to you
End up feeling denied by you

I once dreamed of this girl
She walked the streets all alone
lookin so lost and dazed
into the thoughts in her mind.
Ha, it was great.

She had a smile on her face
Not a care in the world,
Just going with the flow
living life day by day
Wait a second, Damn..
that girl's trapped in that mirror
She looks kinda like me?

Ha.
I never thought Ide end up hurt
this bad
to reach this state of numbness im in
Started feeling this rush traveling down all the veins in my body,
Why did i ever watse time, to care for all your faslely held opinions of me,
You can go along and die with all lies you deny and try to keep hidden from everyone,
including youself
If anyone believes your silly misconceptions me
Ill sit back and laugh
why so worried bout me?
Is it cuz you know i could care less about you
Maybe im just a little braver than you?
I guess i could be all wrong if there's a reason you worry about me more than yourself ide love to hear it, just be straight up with me
and you'll soon see everything is not as you think it is known in your mind.